There's a new location for the journal.  It's not moved over there, just I'm tryin out another server.  Any new posts will be found at kira's journey .   There isn't a notification available as there is here, but it gives me the ability to make some posts private and some public.  It is one of those things that time will tell just what's more needed by me as to which one of these I use. 

Til later.....
kira

kira woke today feeling horrible.  With her head hurting so much it wasn't making for a good waking up.  she forgot to make Master's coffee the night before as well.  Though he was graceous and forgave kira since she wasn't feeling good and he knew it to be so.  kira worked 3 hours and then she went home since she was really feeling like she was out of it, drugged, and dizzy and all she was taking was tylenol.  Master figures that kira gave herself a mild concussion and she's apt to believe him on that.  When she got home she called and talked a few moments with him, got kota squared away with a movie and she fell asleep for several hours until she had to wake up to get ready for school. 

Tonight she feels a bit better.  Was able to eat some ramen noodles tonight after going to class.  Class was something else though as it was extremely hard to focus but she got through it and is now going to have to set out to studying a bit every day so she is able to get it all done.  That will take some time to get used to.

kira had a dream last night that had her for a loop lol  Think she's going to rack it up to getting that talkin to by Master Malkinius and the two hard knocks to her head LOL  What she dreamt of was that Master imposed actions to make her "feel" her slavery in that he was constantly on her if she didn't address him right, or if she failed to beg for something.  He had her begging for everything in her dream.  kira couldn't use her recliner at all, and even her chair in her office was off limits.  ACKS!!!  thank god it was only a dream eh? 

It seems that Mt St Helens is waking up in a big way again.  This one remembers when it blew big time in 1980, and she knows it errupted again in 1986 though she doesn't really remember that one at all.  Now, 18 years later the sleeping beauty has awakened in a rather quick pace.  Tonight it's been said that a small to medium erruption is expected though they don't know when it will come or how much of it will happen.  There's earthquakes of 4 per minute all just under 3.0's.  It should prove to be interesting that's for sure.

That''s it for now so til later.....
kira

God kira HATES things like this, with a passion.  There's not much to say tonight other than the punishment that was handed out.  At work, kira was caulking as usual and she was doing the bottom walls of an electrical room.  she had that lovely hard hat off most of the day, which is normal for kira.  Anyways, she got to cruising along and then wham she nails her head on a steel box on the wall that she didn't see.  Knocked her for a loop and a good enough thud that a guy she has been training on stuff heard it adn he wasn't in the room with kira lol.  So what does she do next?  In about 5 minutes she does it again.  Finally kira gave up and just moved on somewhere else.  Now there's a lil knot on her head and a huge ass headache but oh well tis ok.

Back to the punishment.  kira doesn't like it (ok who would like being punished period) nor does she agree with it, but she bit her tongue a huge amount tonight and didn't just go off like she wanted to. 

For seven days kira must wait at least 2 minutes between begging to leave or go afk for any reason.  Master Malkinius pretty much let kira know there were going to be random delays on if she could leave or not.  Also she's to write out his rules then for seven days she's to read them 3 times a day.

Til later.....
kira

Today the day just flew by at work, which was absolutely wonderful.  Things went smooth and she felt like she got a lot done.  Went with Master to his doctor appointment and then we came home.  kira's desktop is now back from service so she spent some time getting some of the things put back onto it, though there's still a bunch to still go onto it.  Master had sent kira to her office tonight after dinner to do some of her studying that she's been seriously putting off and now starting to really regret it seeing the amount that's still left to do.   Also tonight kira was in a GW with jess, Master Malkinius, and when a topic came up that dealt with jess and Master Malkinius, kira REALLY didn't want to be there and she knew she was just getting upset thinking about it and what not, so she begged to leave.  When there wasn't a response she did it once more.  When she still didn't see a response and the conversation seemed to still go on, kira explained that she felt she shouldn't be there and bid them well and left.  So now she's pretty much waiting to see if what she did was ok or not, though this one has that feeling that she will still be in the wrong on doing it.  That's ok though as kira's prepared to deal with whatever comes about.

Time to scoot and snuggle up with Master and fall asleep into dream land.

kira

Today is our wedding anniversary, and while Master worked kira spent the day relaxing.  she did a lot of thinking and when Master came home she talked with him about it all.  kira seriously needs to find a way to work things out in her head so she can think of Master as just that....Master and not husband.  she also has to find a way to do what is asked on a consistant basis.

til later.....
kira

Not much to say tonight.  Master said that kira pretty much just does what she wants and he's not sure just how to deal with it.  Other things were said too, and kira listened.  She didn't say much at all.  There's a lot to think about this weekend.

til later.....
kira

There's not a lot to say tonight, it was a fairly alright day at work as the day went by semi quickly...least quicker than yesterday did.  Mother nature came and ruined plans for the sack for the next several days.  It was a nerve wracking night tonight as Dakota was bouncing off the wall while kira was tryin to watch some tv.  It also probably was part of the time of the month.

Til later.....
kira

today's posting was sent via email to Master as that was who it was intended for

kira

Tonight kira went to PCC to get registered and sit through a long boring orientation for the classes for work.  After getting her book for class she was told to read a modul.  Hmmmm school isn't starting til next week and already homework? jeepers.

Talked a lil bit with Master Malkinius, who is helping out with something Master Fatin had set out...that is that kira's to smoke no more than 15 cigarettes a day.  So she now has to take out enough smokes to equal 15 and that's it for the day, can't smoke more and can't borrow from anyone. 

kira also was thinking still today on that whole "different ways of being of service" and these are the things that come to her mind.  she did talk some with Master Malkinius tonight on it as well.  There's simply being beside them while they do something else.  There's conversation.  There's massages that may be given.  Fetching something for snacking or drinking.  Making the coffee for the mornings.  Making lunches, dinner, possibly breakfast lol.  There's the obvoius one of in bed.  There is striving to find the little things that might be found pleasing.  There are many different things she knows.  Reckon it's just best to simply ask and let them say what they want for service.

kira did ask Master Malkinius how she can get herself to truely believe people when they say she is starting to understand things when she doesn't feel like she is.    His response was simple, that first off it is the people that tell kira that.  That if kira knows and trusts the people saying it, then she simply needs to accept that they are saying it because they see it to be true.  Secondly, if they explain why they say it, follow their logic from their perspective and see if it matches up.  If it makes sense that way, you know it to be true.

Well that's about it for tonight. 

til later.....
kira

This one is writing tonight because she's having troubles understanding how a person can say they are interested in something but not seek any of the avenues that are set out before them that can help in that interest.  she also is wondering what people think of when they have a slave and that slave "serves" them.  Such as what different ways they may serve.  kira tried to get that tonight in chat, but failed miserably.  Tis what happens oh well.

Til later.....
kira